Stones into Bread and Other Temptations

One consequence of not being able to go to Mass (and not having anyone here who can say Mass) is that one ends up preaching to oneself. So, not for me this Sunday the usual exposition of the three temptations to which Jesus was subject, nor any fascinating diversions by way of why the Spirit drove him into the desert or even any far-fetched analogies with our our own Lenten practice. Instead, I can simply think about the gospel (Matt 4. 1–11) and question my own attitudes and behaviours. To my surprise — and sadness — I have ended up with three analogous temptations I share with you now.

Stones into Bread
Some days ago Cardinal Vincent Nichols gave an interview to the Irish Catholic in the course of which he made some remarks à propos the pope’s commission to study the possibility of extending the diaconate to women. It wasn’t so much the cardinal’s slighly clumsy way of defending the reservation of all forms of holy Orders to men as what he said about women in leadership roles that struck me. He is quoted as saying that he supported leadership roles for women but added, ‘the vast majority of Catholic schools in England and Wales are led by women, as are so many organisations in the English Catholic Church . . .  What I would fear is that the leadership of women would simply be channelled into the Order of Deacon.’

If I have understood correctly, that comes dishearteningly close to saying the only leadership roles he actually envisages for women are in primary and secondary education; and women wouldn’t be able to serve as deacons without that becoming the sole form of service they give to the Church because . . .  well, why, exactly? I don’t think he said. ‘Stones, not bread,’ was my first thought; but then I thought again. It is easy to want the Church to be what we want her to be without regard to what she is in and of herself, and we can come dangerously close to colluding with what is ungodly to transform everything we find unattractive or unyielding to suit us better — in gospel terms, to turn stones into bread because we are hungry and want to be fed. I admit I find the condescension of some of the clergy troubling, even infuriating, at times; but that does not necessarily mean that what they say is rubbish. So, for me, the challenge is to go on praying, questioning, researching, genuinely seeking God’s will for the Church and accepting that I may not always be right, no matter how much I’d like to be.

The Kingdoms of this World
I am sure many share the sense of wretchedness we felt in community when we learned of what had happened at the Bon Secours Mother and Baby Home in Tuam, County Galway. By a painful irony, the news broke just as we had sent off our obligatory annual fee to the Catholic Safeguarding Advisory Service and were debating, not for the first time, what such bodies are able to do to ensure that the abuse of children and vulnerable adults is no longer taking place within the Church. We may say, truthfully, that the world of the Bon Secours Orphanage was very different from that of today, but there is a lingering suspicion, as revelation follows revelation, that perhaps the human psyche does not change very much and some will  still find ways of abusing the trust placed in them. The temptation to maintain the reputation of the individual or the institution at the expense of truth is always with us. When it involves the sacrifice of those who cannot defend themselves or who feel helpless in the face of wealth and power, it is doubly terrifying. We have allowed the kingdoms of this world to obscure our vision of the kingdom of heaven.

Of course, this is not a problem only for the Church. Corruption seems to be rife in politics, finance, sport, almost everything we can name. It is easy to point the finger at others and forget or ignore where we fall short ourselves. We may not be lured by money or fame or the desire to lord it over others, but most of us have some vanity, some weakness or fault we prefer to keep hidden. What lengths would we be prepared to go to avoid exposure or condemnation? It doesn’t really matter that what we think of as unbearable may, in fact, be trivial. It has a hold over us. We are not free. The question I have posed myself this morning is, what holds me in thrall? What earthly kingdoms, so to say, block my way to the heavenly one? The answer I give must be concrete, not abstract; particular, not general — and that is what makes it difficult.

Worshipping the Devil
There are some lines in Marlowe’s Dr Faustus where Faust asks the devil to appear to him in a fairer guise and Mephistopheles comes back disguised as an old Franciscan friar. Most of us are disgusted by evil in plain sight. We are not always quite so condemnatory when evil appears as something else or we are confused about the nature of what we are dealing with. As Christians, we know the danger of making an idol of ourselves; but we are not always as aware of the way in which we can fail to take the measure of what is happening in other spheres. We may have strong political views but fail to see that we have idolised the person in whom we have placed our faith; we may have a firm conviction of the importance of science yet fail to see that some research is unethical and thefore not admissible. I am sure you can find examples of your own. The last and greatest temptation Christ faced in the desert is one we too must face, but it is not an obvious temptation, nor are the ways in which we combat it obvious.

I am not sure how I examine my own attitudes or behaviour with regard to worshipping the devil, but I know that it matters and that, as Lent unfolds, what is obscure to me will become much clearer. That is one reason why beginning Lent with Jesus’ experience of temptation in the desert is so encouraging. Right from the start we are reminded that we are not alone. Where we must go, he has gone before. The victory is already won; it is for us to make it our own, but we cannot rush the process or think we have already attained our end when we are only a little way along the road. Lent may prove even tougher than we thought.

I have added the link to Cardinal Nichols’ interview, with my apologies for not checking that it had registered properly before publishing this post.


6 thoughts on “Stones into Bread and Other Temptations”

  1. Catherine, I thank you for your holy honesty. I am not always honest with myself.
    I do find the attitude of some clerics to be so very disheartening to say the very least.
    Thank you for planting seeds for meditation.

  2. Thank you very much for your writings. They are so helpful and thought provoking.
    I am Anglican and married to a priest. It is good to read from your perspective.
    God bless all His children

  3. Even though “faith, not works” was central to my Lutheran up-bringing, there was also the teaching that it was about “vocation, vocation, vocation” in one’s chosen field of endeavor: that all work was to glorify God. And so it should. There is a tension between wanting to bring in some big $$ from grants because that does give one a fair amount of prestige and power in the academy, vs. doing your best in thanksgiving for what gifts God has bestowed in terms of physical and intellectual health (and wealth). It is easy to deceive oneself (i.e., be tempted) about this work and think that you are righteous in these academic endeavors.

  4. Safeguarding is a very worrying topic for Churches and many of us instinctively want to leave it to others and “look the other way”. However, as in many other spheres, facing up to the reality is the first and necessary step.

    Our various denominations have developed sound policies based upon hard experience, but Safeguarding is like a chain – it is only as strong as the weakest link. Only when all of us play our part, being neither cavalier nor overly anxious, will we begin to see this problem squeezed out.

    Historically, deference allowed malefactors to escape challenge; our institutions need to get over that when it comes to protecting the vulnerable.

    The solution – so far as there can be one – is like so much godly loving service, practical, persistent, honest and reliable.

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